Goals

So lately I have been trying to focus on things that I can control rather than things (or people) that I can't. When I get an idea, I have started entering in my phone things I would like to work on or accomplish. I'm going to share this list with you so you can make sure I am doing it. :)

1. Exercise-and really do it, not just talk about doing it

2. Be a better friend

3. Practice the violin and piano to play in a symphony again

4. Don't be "that house" on my street with all the weeds and overgrown yard

5. Focus on the positive

6. Get a pedicure every 6 weeks

7. Be more outgoing and try to meet new people

8. Run my own decorative cake business*

9. Keep my house clean

10. Work 35 hours a week

Here is 10 to start me off. Some are defiantly easier than others, like the pedicure. The hardest one on there for me is totally going to be meeting new people since I am unnaturally shy. I'm trying really hard to work on myself so that I can be the best example for Payton. Obviously some of these things are going to take years, like he cake business and perhaps keeping my house clean, but I have all the time in the world. It is really crazy (and scary) not knowing what the future holds for me and Payton. Perhaps a little exciting.......

* Remember this?

I had toyed with photography before my camera got hijacked, (and yes folks, I WILL be getting that back one day) but I had so much fun with cake decorating that I would like to try my hand at this. I need your help though. I need practice, and lots of it. I don't even want to expose my thighs to the possibility of cakes piling up in my kitchen, so for $25 or less I would like to make a cake for your celebration. I am charging only for supplies (hence the "less" part) because I am not a professional. I really would just like the practice and to start a portfolio of samples. So for your next birthday, baby shower, anniversary, graduation, holiday, a Wednesday, but no weddings, (I'm not confident enough for that...yet) give me a call or send me an email and we can work something out. Dani (801) 856-4452 danielled17@yahoo.com

Update

I'm feeling unmotivated about my blog for no good reason. I think it is the whole private thing. I dunno. As most of you know I spent last weekend in the hospital having surgery. I have been having stomach pains for quite awhile, and the past few months it has gotten pretty bad. I assumed it was stress related and would eventually go away as soon as my life calmed down, but I decided to get it checked out anyway. I went to my doctor and a CT scan later I was told he was referring me to a surgeon to have things checked out because he was concerned about my liver. Also, if I had the pain again it would be wise to head to the ER. Awesome. The next day I headed to the ER. Another set of tests later, a new doctor told me I have gallstones and I would need surgery to have my gallbladder removed. My response? Of course I do. This is just the kind of thing I need right now. I tried to keep in good spirits, hey some more time off work isn't too shabby right? Two surgeries later (apparently there was a gallstone lodged in some sort of valve that required a second surgery) and I was recovering in the hospital for the night, then sent home the next day.

I'm feeling pretty good now. I'm back to doing my normal routine. I guess this was a blessing in disguise that this happened now while I am still covered by Josh's amazing insurance. Payton was a rock star during the whole thing too. She had no problem spending a few nights at my parents. I'm so grateful she is such a happy little thing.

In other news, Josh was finally served with divorce papers. This has brought a whole new wave of emotions for me. I knew this was coming, I filed a month ago. It has started to really sink in that this is actually happening and the life I thought I would have is no more. He needs to make the next move now. He now knows what I want and expect out of the unfortunate divorce.

Hopefully things will just kinda move forward now and I can figure out what my new "normal" is going to be. Thanks again for all of your support during this crazy time. Love you all!!