Update

I'm feeling unmotivated about my blog for no good reason. I think it is the whole private thing. I dunno. As most of you know I spent last weekend in the hospital having surgery. I have been having stomach pains for quite awhile, and the past few months it has gotten pretty bad. I assumed it was stress related and would eventually go away as soon as my life calmed down, but I decided to get it checked out anyway. I went to my doctor and a CT scan later I was told he was referring me to a surgeon to have things checked out because he was concerned about my liver. Also, if I had the pain again it would be wise to head to the ER. Awesome. The next day I headed to the ER. Another set of tests later, a new doctor told me I have gallstones and I would need surgery to have my gallbladder removed. My response? Of course I do. This is just the kind of thing I need right now. I tried to keep in good spirits, hey some more time off work isn't too shabby right? Two surgeries later (apparently there was a gallstone lodged in some sort of valve that required a second surgery) and I was recovering in the hospital for the night, then sent home the next day.

I'm feeling pretty good now. I'm back to doing my normal routine. I guess this was a blessing in disguise that this happened now while I am still covered by Josh's amazing insurance. Payton was a rock star during the whole thing too. She had no problem spending a few nights at my parents. I'm so grateful she is such a happy little thing.

In other news, Josh was finally served with divorce papers. This has brought a whole new wave of emotions for me. I knew this was coming, I filed a month ago. It has started to really sink in that this is actually happening and the life I thought I would have is no more. He needs to make the next move now. He now knows what I want and expect out of the unfortunate divorce.

Hopefully things will just kinda move forward now and I can figure out what my new "normal" is going to be. Thanks again for all of your support during this crazy time. Love you all!!